Proof that, once upon a time, I was skinny
I don't guess I can really blame the kids, when I stop and think about it. I chose to have the kids. I love my kids. I would do anything for my kids. What I didn't notice, until now, is that in loving and taking care of my kids, I neglected to take care of myself. Without even realizing it, the weight has just added up over the years. Now, here I am. Trying to begin a new quest to get in better health, eat better, and loose some of the horrid weight. As someone who loves food - I swear it is in my genes to eat! - this is proving to be a task for me.
My sweet babies did a number on my body.
Leah (5 years in the picture) was 8lbs 8ozs when she was born
Logan (8 months in this picture) was 9lbs 11 1/2ozs when he was born
Getting older is hard so far. Granted, we are all in relatively good health and don't have any major health problems. However, the little things do make a difference. For me, this summer has been a turning point. In May, I went to the doctor and had a terrible ear infection. Once it cleared up, the dizziness set in. Physical therapy, lots of doctors appointments, and finally - right as Leah went back to school, I felt better...for a couple of weeks...and then another ear infection. I am still battling some slight dizziness but am hopeful that it will continue to improve. At the doctor appointment before I started therapy, the doctor said that if the dizziness didn't start to get better that we would do an MRI to rule out a mass. That scared the snot out me. I guess, I should be thankful that he said that because it really made me step back and look at my life and my health. I realized that I don't want to be a fat person anymore. I want to be healthy. I know I will never be skinny again, but I do want to loose some weight. Mainly, I want to LIVE! What good is giving your life to raising your kids if you aren't around to SEE your kids grow up?!!
It is sort of ironic that, as mom's, we dedicate our lives to our children, but don't realize that we are sacrificing our lives in the process. I guess we just really need to find a balance between caring for our children AND ourselves. I am hopeful that I am on the right path and can keep up the healthier eating and drop a few pounds. I am sure positive that this won't be an easy road, but I am ready to head down it!!!
I like you in that red lipstick in the first picture. Very sexy!
ReplyDeleteLOL - Hotness, indeed. Ahhh, the 90's prom days!
ReplyDeleteI totally get it. I just posted in my blog about the same thing. To funny. Good luck on your quest. I know I will never be a size 5 but would settle for a 10
ReplyDeleteShoot - I'd settle for a 12 right now!
ReplyDeleteFirst of all, I love that pic of Leah & Logan when they were younger!! And I cannot believe that Logan weighed close to 10 lbs when he was born!! Wow!! Second of all, I think you are beautiful just the way you are, but I think it is an awesome goal to want to get healthy & not just be worried about the pounds that you want to lose! I started this whole healthier lifestyle with diet & exercise in Jan and feel so much better today then I have in years! I love that I don't get winded going up & down the stairs and that I feel like by taking time out for myself, it is making me a much better mom & wife. By adding in exercise, I feel like the weight has just come right off & it is staying off, a problem that I have had in the past! So, good luck! I think you will do a great job on your new quest!!
ReplyDeleteThanks Amy! Yes, my Logan was a whopper! LOL! I totally know what you mean, I hate not being able to go up and down the stairs without getting out of breath, or not having the energy to keep up with the kids. I am hoping that I can keep this up and when Logan starts school next year, I can get to the gym and do even better!!! Thanks for the words of encouragement!!!
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