I'm a Mama!!!

It is Mother's Day weekend!  Yahoo!   I love being a Mommy, more than anything in the world.  I love my kids, although I am the first to admit that they can absolutely drain the life out of me some days.  They are the best little things that have ever happened to me.  Sometimes, I am amazed that God thought I was worthy to be a Mama...and to be a Mama of such awesome, strong-willed, and adorable kids!  I just thank him so much for all the blessings he has given me!

Being a Mama is wonderful.  Being a Mama is trying.  Being a Mama is stressful.  Being a Mama is worrisome.  Being a Mama is rewarding.  Being a Mama is the most significant thing in my life.   Sometimes, I think about growing old, my kids growing older, and I wonder what is in store for their lives.  I also wonder what they'll think about me, as a mom, when they reflect back.  I wonder what they will remember about me when I'm gone.  I want to be remembered as a fun mom, a mom who tried to take the kids places and let them do fun stuff.   I know I won't be remembered as the mom who rolled around in the floor and played...I wish I was, but I'm not.  I don't want to be remembered as "the perfect mom," because I know I have many failures.  I yell.  I fuss.  I complain.   I really need to do better but sometimes it is hard.  The chores of everyday home life can wear you down.  Dishes.  Laundry.  Dusting.  Toys.  Dogs.  Eating.  Vacuuming.  Bathing.  Homework.  After school activities.  Grocery Shopping.  Bill paying.  There is only so much time in the day I am constantly struggling with trying to divide my time between the kids and the every day tasks.  

I love watching my kids learn new things.  I love watching them play.  I love watching them sleep.  They are always so sweet when they are sleeping, right Mama's???  I love it when they tell me they love me.  Logan does this a lot.  He's still at the sweet age.  Leah is getting older and I don't hear the cute little "loves" and things like I used to from her.   It is bittersweet I guess...I am happy that she's growing into a beautiful young lady, but sad that my one and only girl isn't so "little" anymore.   I love watching Logan be a "boy" and I do mean "ALL BOY!"

On this Mother's Day weekend, I am just thankful that God has given me the chance to be a Mama...I just hope that I am doing a good job, in his eyes, and in my kids eyes.  I know that, at the time, you don't realize it, but when you get older and look back on things, sometimes you have a greater appreciation.  I hope that one day my kids can appreciate all that we have tried to do for them.  I might not be the perfect mom, but I do the best I can...

So, Leah and Logan, I want to thank you both for making me one of the most happiest, most frazzled, most blessed Mama's there is!!!   You made me the one thing that I always wanted to be:  A MAMA!!!  I love you both!!!